Is it just me, or does everyone have a fantasy of the way their future's going to be? When i was a kid i always thought i would open a pizza shop with Maggie and would get married to some hunk (but i never imagined my wedding) and have a few kids and it would just be one big happy family! But now as i get older my whole outlook on life has changed. I think it has something to do with my family situation. Since i was about twelve years old my parents stopped hiding from me the fact that they hate each other. (and apparently fell out of love when i was five years old) So i guess being around a failed marriage most of my life made me think that's how all marriages eventually turn out, and now i never wanna get married.  Also, i don't want children.. again because of the whole fam. situation. My kids wouldnt have any aunts or uncles and divorced grandparents, that sucks. Plus, i can't imagine something THAT BIG coming out of my vagina (sorry to be blunt but it's the truth) and i'd probably would be a horrible mom. So now.. here's how i picture my future. I'm gonna go to an art college (Montserrat, Mass Art, or RISD) and then i'm gonna get a decent job which will basically be my life. Work = Life. I'll live in a house with some guy/girl who will be my roomate/person i'm dating. They'll be way into their job too. We'll never have children. You won't be able to see the floors in our house because it'll be covered in paperwork and the walls will be covered with paintings, artwork and whatever else. I'll be one of those weirdos who shops at the salvation army and walmart for clothes because fashion is nothing to me (i already do that now). And lastly, I'll travel a lot just to draw/ paint/ take a break from the realities of life. That's all folks. Peace out. - Hilzy